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back to the online journal entries once again

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 04:14:52 GMT

definitely havn't written anything in here for a long time. since then what has happened to me? well just balancing my life..
work is still same old fido...school is okay at the moment...
personal issues are an always...there's no way to escape them. especially when the same issues keep coming back to bite u in the butt...in my case, it's a never-ending cycle now.
when will it stop....
i think i've reached a point where i don't really know what to do..i've been here soo many times before and i've always held back. personally i don't think i have the courage to do anything more than to be passive. its one of those times where u have everything rehearsed in ur head and all u want to say but when the moment comes...u just go blank and be passive and let the other person step all over ur feelings and turn the tables.
i know thats gonna happen cause nothing has changed thus far and i've tried so hard before but it has gotten me no where...

time to go for a drive.. laters all

Friday, June 09, 2006

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 15:06:16 GMT

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 06:06:45 GMT

i feel as though i'm waiting for something to happen.

i've come to the conclusion that it won't.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 04:45:27 GMT

why do the right people always come at the wrong time!?!??!......ahhhh ...wait scratch that! ......there is never a "right" person that comes at the wrong time....if their the "right" person they should appear at the right time because they're always the right one. however in this case, this is so wrong. ....

i dont know why i bother wasting my time thinking about this. when i think there's progress, i'm actually just fooling myself to believe something that i hope will happen but in actuality, never will. it's stupid to try to change something that would probably never change. it's only meant to be what it is and what it is, is not right for me....its only a waiting game now.

....sigh...........i don't know what to say...

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 23:56:54 GMT

argh.....

paid bill at the bank in cash...bank took cash..stamped receipt..all done..........then a month later receive a bill that includes accumulated interests that i did not pay the bill that was paid with cash at the bank...called the company...company said to go to bank ...bank claims that they never took any money...ARGGHHH.....i provided proof that they had stamped my reciept therefore taking my money...they claimed that they will look into where the money went cause there was no record of the money taken...now i have to wait for phone call.

stupid thing is i still have to pay for the full bill AGAIN otherwise it would be late..the bank stated that they would pay my interests but wtf is the point of that?! the friggin interest was only 2.80 ...while the whole bill i had to pay again was close to a hundred..

aaaaaaaaaaarrgh.....>.< frustration kills me

Monday, January 30, 2006

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 19:50:15 GMT

i hate philosophy:

1. if i continue with philosophy, then i will suffer.

2. i continue with philosophy.

3. therefore i will suffer.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 16:38:27 GMT

i need some subjects for my anthropology fieldwork.

anybody game?

hehe i'll give u M&Ms if ur a good participant

Monday, January 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 05:44:42 GMT

i need a new hobby.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 19:55:03 GMT

ehehe look how small the piece of orange is!! hehe seriously..i think they're called manderins but they're extremely small..smaller than usual..

yea i'm so bored i'm taking pictures of fruits. anyways gyms are great places to meet guys..not that i wanna meet any but i was working out this morning and saw this guy offering to help this pretty chick do weights ..haha it was so sweet--love blossoming. they would make sucha nice couple. hehe

no work nor school today. so relaxing. gonna go watch some soaps.laterz!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 18:55:33 GMT

i hate rain. make it all go away!!! . i wanted to wash my car today but theres no point in doing that since it's gonna rain this afternoon anyway. so stupid. ahhhhh

so bored. i wanna go shopping.

went shopping yesterday..it was sweeet. bought cheap jeans. very nice looking. hhhehe