| definitely havn't written anything in here for a long time. since then what has happened to me? well just balancing my life..
work is still same old fido...school is okay at the moment...
personal issues are an always...there's no way to escape them. especially when the same issues keep coming back to bite u in the butt...in my case, it's a never-ending cycle now.
when will it stop....
i think i've reached a point where i don't really know what to do..i've been here soo many times before and i've always held back. personally i don't think i have the courage to do anything more than to be passive. its one of those times where u have everything rehearsed in ur head and all u want to say but when the moment comes...u just go blank and be passive and let the other person step all over ur feelings and turn the tables.
i know thats gonna happen cause nothing has changed thus far and i've tried so hard before but it has gotten me no where...
time to go for a drive.. laters all
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| i feel as though i'm waiting for something to happen.
i've come to the conclusion that it won't. |
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| why do the right people always come at the wrong time!?!??!......ahhhh ...wait scratch that! ......there is never a "right" person that comes at the wrong time....if their the "right" person they should appear at the right time because they're always the right one. however in this case, this is so wrong. ....
i dont know why i bother wasting my time thinking about this. when i think there's progress, i'm actually just fooling myself to believe something that i hope will happen but in actuality, never will. it's stupid to try to change something that would probably never change. it's only meant to be what it is and what it is, is not right for me....its only a waiting game now.
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| argh.....
paid bill at the bank in cash...bank took cash..stamped receipt..all done..........then a month later receive a bill that includes accumulated interests that i did not pay the bill that was paid with cash at the bank...called the company...company said to go to bank ...bank claims that they never took any money...ARGGHHH.....i provided proof that they had stamped my reciept therefore taking my money...they claimed that they will look into where the money went cause there was no record of the money taken...now i have to wait for phone call.
stupid thing is i still have to pay for the full bill AGAIN otherwise it would be late..the bank stated that they would pay my interests but wtf is the point of that?! the friggin interest was only 2.80 ...while the whole bill i had to pay again was close to a hundred..
aaaaaaaaaaarrgh.....>.< frustration kills me |
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